Mountains and rants

Certain places talk to you through the way they are. The cities in their own strange way wind your ego. The seas stablize your core. The sound of the ways go much deeper than your skin and bones. 

If you've been living in a city especially Delhi, my hometown, you tend to feel the social practices and norms getting heavier by the day. But if you stay near the coast the sound of the waves suddenly cancels out the importance of our existance. Reminding, with every wave of the breeze and the sea itself that there's much more to things than the rat race we've been in. 

Mountains are very similar in that context and definitely one of my favorites. There are multiple layers to which it is destressing. The moment you enter the mountains, the people completely change. They are much sweeter, caring, and humble. It seems like there's a inverse relationship between height of the place and the ego of the people. 

The pine trees, the himachali chai, actual goats grazing natural grass, rivers Singing lullabies there's so much to go there for. Mountains for me destress at different levels and dimensions simultaneously. 

Their grandness when realized makes us feel so tiny and irrelevant. The good kind of irrelevant. The type of

Irrelevant that let's us drop our stories behind and just be absorbed by the scenic masterpiece the nature has created. Birds wake you up with happily. The sun feels like it's happy for you and triggers gratefullness. The formation of the clouds and sunset in the same frame as the mountains is a drug in itself. The oxygen is widely abundant. 

We all know one can get high off of oxygen. Trancidental meditation is all about defusing the right amount of oxygen to the brain. With the level of pollution in delhi, five breaths equal one taken in the hills. No wonder you'd find all Yogis there. They've known this for centuries that a higher altitude is scientifically more beneficial for their yog and their meditative state. Any place with a lot of greenery is ideal for the Yogi but the hills have a special pull. 

I'm not a Yogi or a Traveller. I've studied in Shimla for 5 years and spent 3 years in manipal, Karnataka for my college which is very close to a beach. I've been living in Delhi only in the past 2 years plus the first 12 years of my life and I have to say, delhi as a city is one of the most stressful cities to stay in. 

I really hope things get better here, and hope even more to finally settle down in the hills.

Oh anna

Hello Anna 
How's your day? 
Did you meditate 
Or did you pray ? 

I meditated 
And centred me 
You though 
I thought I'd see 

I'd hoped 
To see you 
In that garden 
Of mine 
No-thought 
No-action 
And no-mind 

Just flowers 
That'd open up 
To your smiles 
And laughter 
When you're 
Woken up 

Where I'd lay 
Beside 
Your gorgeous 
Soul 
Feeling satisfied 
And feeling whole 

I'd close my eyes 
Your hands would hold 
My hands inside 
The sheets so old 

Your hands would 
Almost melt my fingers 
Like there's more 
To explore 
And then some more 

When you'd 
Touch me 
I'd shut my eyes 
To be aware of 
My hands 
You'd want 
To explore 

I'd be aware 
Of every inch
You touch 
Transcending 
Healing 
Warming up 

Holding hands 
To caressing my arms 
To touching my neck 
A trancidental dance 

Oh Anna 
You beauty.





 

Im not (original)

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Lands and sea

Buried deep 
Inside my bed 
With words drooling
On my head 

From faces 
I have grown 
Up with 
In places I have 
Grown and 
Hid 

Those corners
And those 
Dusty rooms 
Dirty plates 
And broken 
Brooms 

Hide somewhere
In my town 
In memories
Somewhere down 

Down the line
In Time
My time 
Glories lived 
And I would shine 

Won alone 
Won it all 
None around 
To clap or call 

I smiled at 
My conquered lands
Well constructed 
Built with hands 

And then 
I had 
To stop and leave 
My conquered lands 
My giant seas 

Back to where
My school books were 
Reading stories
They believed 

Believed to let 
Me code the world 
In sentences 
Made of words 

The conquered 
Lands 
Giant seas
Washed away 
With reality 

Reality 
That they believed 
Would give birth 
To those seas 

To seas 
And 
To those lands 
And to the singers 
Of the bands 

That sang
Songs of freedom
That sang songs 
Of hope 
To let out their treason 
And wash it
With my soap 

Clean it 
Clean it 
Wipe it clean 
Wipe it till 
You're eighteen 

And then 
In the 'real world'
Do what they've 
Done above 

Follow follow 
Kill your lands 
Kill those seas 
With your hands 

Choke them 
Till they fuckin 
Die 
For if you don't
Then they will try 

Kill them 
Cut them 
Chop them up 
"If you don't 
Then you will cry" 

You will cry 
And you will loose 
And if you try 
Then you will choose 

Choose your 
Path 
Loose your sight
Try walking
And you just might 

You might just 
Reach those 
Lands and sea
Standing tall 
On your feet 

Hold that story
Hold your ground
Look straight
Don't turn around 

You will 
Walk and 
You will see
That's always been
Your realty

Buried deep 
Inside my bed 
I start living 
My dreams instead. 

Sigh-chedelic

Half the world
Across from here 
She sat looking
At everything clear 

With sunlight 
Lighting up 
Her smile 
She turned around
So she could 
Feel 

Feel the sunlight 
On her back 
Sunrays sinks
To slowly hack 

Hack her 
Pores 
Hack her mind 
Hack her 
Empty
Glass of wine 

Her eyes 
Roll up 
In the loving warmth
Her neck looks like 
A silent storm 

I reach in now 
To breathe her in 
I caress her chest 
And rub her skin 

Her nipples Stand 
Up to see 
What they can touch 
What they can feel 

Her smile begins 
To invite me in 
My mind and soul 
As well my skin 

Our skins greet
With a wholesome 
Thirst 
Our lips open 
Her sit above 

Above 
My chin 
Above my heart 
Above my stomach 
And then I grin 

I lay behind
Her 
I stay behind 
Her 
I bite and lick 
And kiss 
Behind her 
I put my hands
On her thighs 
She pulls me 
Close 
And then sighs 
My fingertips
Part her thighs 
Louder breaths 
Louder sighs 
Her back 
Curls in an arc 
Her body 
Like a piece of art 
Her fragrance 
Born from satisfaction 
Her soft breasts 
Above her heart 

Holds me 
Molds me 
Gently folds me 
Her tongue 
Resisting 
From the start 
Dives in my 
Mouth now 
Strives in my 
Mouth now 
Alive in my 
Mouth now 
Takes a walk 

Like a beautiful 
Girl walking in the rain 
Happy despite 
All her pains. 

THC

At the end 
Of the day 
When things 
Seem dull 
Like molten lava 
Chocolate cake 
Oozing from
Your skull 

Just hope
There's More
Of that 
THC left 
And hope that
Your parents 
Were tired 
And slept 

Then you 
Lay your
Troubles down 
And whatever 
Makes You frown 
Hold you happy
Thoughts
And wear them
Like a crown

Wear them
Till you slide
Into your own
Wild
You begin
To start swimming
And then begin
To glide

Glide over
Mountains
Their snowcapped
Peaks
Where apparently
All sadhus
Have found
What you seek

Fly over rivers
And fly over seas
Fly within the flowers
And then through
The bees

Float like the clouds
Let winds
Take their turns
Let them
Change direction
And have
Their fun

Let droplets
Of water
Converse
In your head

Do they discuss
Philosophy
Or have a
Small talk
Instead ?

Let love
Loosen up
And crack
It's bones

The real love
That happens
Outside
Your phones

Let love out
And let love be
Let love live
Let love seek

Rest your palms
On your eyes
Rest your vision
On a dice

Roll it once
Roll it twice
While you smoke some mango
And some red ice

Hold that drag
Release your soul
Let it out
Onto the floor

Let it dance
Let it sing
Let it laugh
And then you bring -

All that is sour
And all that is sweet
All that's delicious
Different kind of meats

Everything in front
Everything is dead
Everything once lived
For you to be fed

Make sure
You finished
Every little​ bit
And now
Somewhere quiet
Freely sit

Free like the
Creepers
Growing on the trees
Free like dogs
Roaming
On your streets
Free like the moon
Dancing with the earth
Free like the day-light
Warming up
Your shirt

Breathe in hopes
Breathe out fear
They legalized it
In the US

Soon

They'll do it
Here.

#legalizehere

Aura & Fauna

Building shields 
In our fields 
Made of power 
That yields 

Every moment 
Of our lives 
Every image 
Of our dreams 

Every step
That goes 
Through time 
Inside outside 
All combined 

Walking through 
Emotional mines 
Some are yours 
Some are mine 

Watch your step 
Or just tip-toe 
Hold your breath 
Out it goes 
Don't count 
Your candles though 

Watch your breath 
Watch your heart 
Before it snaps 
Or rips apart 

Loosen your feelings 
Let them start 
To take control
And create art 

On papers and 
On city walls 
In nature 
And in pretty halls 
In chaos 
And in silence 
And music 
With your 
Violins 

And in bed 
With your lover's 
Heart 
Don't focus 
When you throw
The dart 

Focus when 
You throw away
Your lesser self's 
Own array 

Don't let this turn 
Into affray 
Into affray 
Into affray 

The silent duo

A million wands 
A single heart 
A single mind 
A single brain 

A couple 
Sitting silently
So comfortable 
In the rains 

Holding 
Thought
Moulding
Love
Smoking 
God 
Drinking 
Wine 

Layers of 
Promises
And not
A single sign 

He will be 
There 
He will laugh
He would 
Help her 
Heal her scars 

She will be
There
She will laugh 
She would 
Help him 
Read the stars 

Layers of 
Promises 
And not a single 
Sign 

Eye am real.

My outer shell
Of sensations
Seems to shake
Its great
To know
And feel
All this
Together

A wholesome
Mouthful
Contented
Warmth
From just
Feeling

Do you feel?

Do you feel the way
You eat
Or fear
The unknown?

Consciously
Stupid

Consciously
Intelligent

Consciously
Absent
From the current
Moment

Consciously
Calculating
The reasons
For years

Consciously feeding
Your body

Aware of
Being unaware
About
Everything there is
But why

We know
If no
Humans
Exist

The nature
Wouldn't
Even blink
An eye

An eye
That is
In all of us

Our conscious
Little
Eye

The observer
Is what
Is in us
Of us
With us
To see

The nature
Has newborns
As the freshest
Windows

Freshest views

For good
Bad
Ugly
Sad
Loving
Caring
Sharing
Stealing
Murdering
Killing
Itself
Every day
Every night
Keeping fight
The only reason
Such treason
Towards
Oneself

You built
These
Mountains

Im talking
To you

The one sitting
Behind
The readers eyes

You built this
Yourself
The rivers
The seas
The flowers
And trees

Everything

Dont cloud your mind
With self doubt

Keep it free
For better ideas
Beautiful ideas

Even if it means
Revealing
What you hide
Behind the door
Of your room

Let that idea
Be a sensation
Something tangible
Give it the same worth
You give
To your teeth
In the morning

Clean and rinse
Free from
The sour bacteria
Dont let it sit
And stink

Stagnance smells bad.

Fresh is always welcomed
With kisses.

The muse to be

She would
Smile
Like an angel
Going through
A greed-flu

As if she
Had understood
Seduction

The darkness
In her eyes
Like a shadow
Of her vibe
A lucid
Reflection
Of my own

She thought
Of being immortal
She thought
I had the power

She thought
My ink
Could
Make that miracle
Happen

As if
The whiteness
Of my sheet
Resembled
The peace
The treasure
Of the multicolored
Heaven

She said
She'd swore
On
The universe
Itself
That she saw
A rainbow
Behind my
Head

She'd move
In ways 
My eyes
Hesitate
And stop
To even
Blink

Like a ship
Caught up
In a stormy
Night
And now
Just waiting
To sink

Amidst these
Lies
Rainbows
Butterflies
My cigarette
Burnt
Untouched

I kissed her
Thighs
She kissed
My head
Our choices
Of drugs
Were different

For her
It was
The immortal
Peace in heaven
For me
It was her touch

Such fantasies
I say
Such fantasies.

Bachpan ka dibba

Bachpan ka dibba
Khol kar dekha
Toh mile hain sapne
Kuch aise anjaan

Wo bacha jisko
Tod kar pheka
Kisi kone mei chipa
Bolta hai

Koshish toh karte
Jeene ki...

Koshish toh karte jeene ki
Un sapno ko bhee peene
Ki

Jis shiddat se...

Jis shiddat se
Jaam uthaate ho
Iss bache
Ko yun daraate ho
Logon ki chid chid baarish mei
Mujhko aise bhigaate ho

Daraate ho
Chidaate ho
Naakaamiyon se
Sataate ho
Girte ho
Giraate ho
Mujhe hee jhootha bataate ho

Awaaz hun tere andar ki...

Awaaz hun tere andar ki
Fir bhee itna rulaate ho

Kaagaz par rang pheko zara
Has kar toh kabhi dekho zara
Nathkhat sa rass hai gudgudi mei
Gudgudana bhee ab seekho zara

Naam nahi iss duniya mei...

Naam nahi iss duniya mei
Kaam nahi iss duniya mei
Na naam hai
Na kaam hai
Nakaam nahi iss duniya mei

Khud ka tum ehsaas karo....

Khud ka tum ehsaas karo
Hone par vishwaas karo
Kal par hukum chalaate ho

Ya beet chuka
Ya aana hai
Har kal ne bhee chukaana hai

Hisaab jo rakhna bhool gaya...

Hisaab jo rakhna bhool gaya
Uss bache par zulm uthaate ho
Kyu itna rulaate ho

Wo bacha jisko
Tod kar pheka
Kisi kone mei chipa
Bolta hai

Koshish toh karte
Jeene ki
Aaj meri chitaah jalaate ho

Damn

Rivers meet
The ocean
Unaware
Of their start.

Their birth,
The glacier's
Worth
Isn't any less
A piece of art.

Its only when
They begin
To flow
They begin
To spread life
But would
They know
Their responsibilities
Or every little
Fight
They put up
With the rocks
And trees
On the way

Quarreling rapids
With sounds astray

Curving rocks
Into pebbles
Hills into levels
Freedom into rebels
When order repels them,
The 'damned' rivers.

Step one, two and three

The light
At the end
Of the tunnel
Is getting closer
Getting brighter
By the second

A new year
Has begun
But the birds
Seem to chirp
The same way

A child
Has just tasted
Mud for the
First time
Ask him
What gourmet is

A vibration
Carrying with it
Light
Has pushed the
Existence to
Become bigger
Than it was
As it was
A second ago

A mother
Has stopped outside
A toy shop
Looking at a toy
Her child wanted
And this time
She wants to
Surprise her

A vulture
Has spotted
A dead dear

An eye
Has seen
A glimpse of
God
A glimpse of
Me and a glimpse
Of you
A glimpse of nature
A glimpse of truth

A seed has just
Germinated

Weed has been
Terminated
They call it medicine
Now

Time has been
A lonely traveller
Being judged
For what it is
By others

But time itself
Is the water
To the seed
The hope
Of a child

The honey
From the bees
The rain
For the sad
Spring for the free
The step one, two and three

Birth life and death

The detached leaf
From the tree

Let us all assemble
Now
And begin to live
As one.

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Malana

Its solitude has its own character. The people speak a different language. The laws are different. Its recently gotten a bit dirty so the hikers need to be careful of the wrappers. Its a hard walk but for a short distance from where the trek begins. The view is breathtaking and will consume all your stress. Ull get pitstops on the way up for refueling whatever you need. I mean it, whatever you need. And the you enter the village. The mystery in the eyes of the people is a by-product of their lifestyle. Its a pleasure to be here.

Self-fairness

A reflection of me
In a reflection of you
When jaundiced eye
Sees its truth
The anger in me
Becomes the faults
In you
Until we begin
To see through
The stored emotions
Good or bad
Make you nervous
Happy or sad
Make you go mad
At times
Going in circles
Growing in truth
Smoking joints
Growing fat too
Sitting through
Long conversations
With yourself
Of change
Of fresher starts
Like soggy
Lemon tarts

The pastry
Tastes contradictory
Lemon takes away
The lemony

Set yourself free,
And don't be diplomatic
About it.

Mirrors for the middlemen

In the face
Of music
In the light
Of the moment

I will show you
A reflection
Of your own

Half of it
Your image's
Projection
The other half
Will design
Your soul

Pride will pick
The best in you
Judgement will
Highlight the worst

Together,

It will be
Your 'whole'
But you
In all this

Will be somewhere
Behind
Your eye balls,

All three
Of them.

Kasol - a reunion with self

I've been travelling lately, and taking pictures around in kasol and chalaal. The places has dragged me to it for the 5th time now, but finally a solo trip. Ive been reading up khushwant singh and walking around the mountains for a bit. The grand beauty of himachal never fails to leave me in gratitude. I come here to relax my subconscious and my conscious. Meeting new people is always on the list. If you ever wish to see the northern side, this is the place to be. Cheap rooms, good food and good meditation spots. A lot of nationalities meet together. Malana is a trek away so your mood is taken care of naturally.