take care sweety...

I feel miserable right now ,and when i talk to, it feels like you don't want to talk to me. I feel like being used and not yet thrown... what is it that you still crave?what is that you want from me now?now that i am doing what you want me to, you are not liking it, i am going according to you but you don't know what u really want from me.

What i have realized is dat staying away from is actually helping me through,i know that i don't love you,it is just an infatuation, and it will soon be over, and i want that soon to be very soon, i haven't told i like you though, you might not think that i actually like you because the way we talk makes it look like a very healthy and friendly relationship, you think i am a good friend of yours, but i know its my mistake that i have not told you about how i feel.As i was saying what i have realized is staying away from you is actually helping me through getting rid of your thought, the more i do not talk to you , the more i do not miss you.

Another thing that i realized was that i can pretend very well. if you are reading this you might not know its for you, because the way i pretend to be your friend explains how good i am. Manipulating you is another thing that i know,if i tell you its not for you, you will believe me, so basically i can pretend and manipulate you. i am happy that i am good at something , otherwise i am no good in anything that might have helped me create a nice bond with you.

I know you look for a few good qualities in men you are interested in, he should be tall dark and handsome , being physically strong could be another quality, i know i am neither tall, nor dark, nor handsome and i am definitely not physically strong ... but one thing i could have guaranteed was, i could have helped you through any situation , anything, i could have been there when you would need me the most but sadly i am not good enough for you.

But again as i have realized it was just an infatuation and i can get over it , ill try my best not talking to you, i will be in a miserable condition but that for a fact is sweet misery for me, i still like you , but i don't like myself liking you now. if you are in case wondering why i have resulted in ignoring you, its just that i know i am a friend of yours and i cant see you in any kind of situation which you don't like , and of course because i feel like just another guy in your life who is getting after you and irritating you. i know you need a little more space than required so i think this is it. you will still not be able to make out that i am ignoring you or this very note i am writing is for you, but i know that you will be (hopefully) a lot happier then before.

i am feeling relieved now that i have put my feelings here, you take good care of yourself... stay happy .

( i wrote this for someone dear to me... when i told her the reality that i had written this for, things changed, and we haven't been talking since then)